Saturday, January 29, 2011
Even though I missed posting anything pertaining to 2010 in my blog, I must still acknowledge that I am still very well alive, and perhaps, not that well.
With hardcore procrastination, and being intoxicated with all the computer game timing I was entitled to after A levels, I gave little thought onto filling this blog with memories. What triggered my return here is the arrival of a new sofa set my father ordered. My mother immediately order of the removal of the old sofa set, which was wrinkling. It got me thinking; is that how pragmatic(practical) we are? The old did not have time to even 'hand over' the roles to the new, and the old was immediately relieved of its duty, and at that, to be discharged. I'll admit I'm the sentimental kind, and therefore I felt that the old sofa set shouldn't be thrown away. My father concurs with me, but my mother rants about, for one, the trouble she has to go through to move the sofa around so that the floor it occupies is cleaned using the vacuum cleaner. But I'm guessing she doesn't like to keep things around. She tossed one older piece of sofa from the previous previous set but I guess my father didn't realise it yet. But my father did eventually move the old sofa down from my floor to the ground floor for disposal. As he dragged the sofa across the ground floor, the legs of the sofa gave a sharp screech, as if wailing to not be disposed off...
My dad, on the other hand, tries to replace what my mother complains as broken. Take for example the vacuum cleaner. The old vacuum cleaner broke again after being resuscitated awhile back. She complained quite abit about the trouble (and pain) she had to clean the house. So my dad got a new one. Now she complains that the new one is too heavy. Oh wait, she was having too much pain to go choose the one she wants, and she wants a new one. It's like saying I want to eat something but you choose for me. When the food isn't to my liking isn't it my fault for letting you choose? (no offense intended)
The same goes for the sofa and rolling chair and other stuff. Nothing is to her liking. Oh well, no wonder I never got her a birthday present. She'll dislike it anyway ^^
I don't know why my younger brother likes to stay up late at night. He clearly has nothing better to do but he's like trying to be the last one to sleep or something. Oh well. 12 AM and counting :D
Speaking my mother, I think she's acting like a kid recently. She tries to get what she wants, in a more childish way. If things aren't going as the way she wants, she'll just make a din and make everyone give into her. Take for example when eating out. The seat chosen was near the exit point of the exhaust for the hawker center, and she kept complaning about the smoke and stuff. Not to mention when there are smokers around... She has contributed greatly to the family for years and now she's suffering from aches all over her body, but surely there's a better way to present herself?
My younger brother on the other had became a full fledge computer / NDS addict. Not that I'm too worried. But by social convention I should be, as a older brother, be concerned, but I don't want to be a douchebag.
My last post ends somewhere in the midst of A levels. As I remembered, I wanted to confess about my feeling about the Economics paper. The word is confess. I guess I felt so guilty about that subject I neglected. Apart from General Paper (GP) and Chinese... Well, Chinese can't be rectified since ever since primary 3 my chinese standard went into... errr... skydiving? For GP I was too engrossed with computer games to read up and my English vocabulary accelerated at 9.81 m/s^2 ever since... I don't have a value for that unfortunately. But I digress, for economics I felt really guilty since I put in some effort, but not that much. I started reading every material from scratch a few days prior to the exam, but I couldn't get my mind focused so I ended up playing facebook games on my father's facebook account. Sad huh. In the end, in the exam, I blanked out on the most fundamental question, which is of globalisation. I wrote a length of text which I scrapped in the end as I find it irrelavent. It was a mess. I never really wanted to touch this sector of my memory. But I guess I have to let it out, bit by bit. I can only release this lock if I analyse what went wrong. I guess I know, but my mind tries to block me from it. Sad case.
At 12.30am, my younger brother prepares to go to sleep.
So about 1 year ago I got my A level results. Was I elated? Excited? Those emotions don't show on me. I was more concerned about other stuff. The day that I collected my results... marked the same day where I would most likely last meet those that I met in school. My teachers, classmates and schoolmates. Perhaps marked the last time I would see the interior of the facility. But time is like a tsunami wave, or like a mudslide, it doesn't wait. What emotion was I overfilled with unwillingness to graduate? Or to age? It means little now anyway. Remember, there's this mudslide. My 2nd Civics tutor presented me the grade certificate, she asked if I was happy, I know the answer. Nah, I could've done better (see above).
So in 2010 it was the year I go enlisted in the army. The heck? To avoid getting into unnecessary trouble I shall leave it at that. But I'll let you in on something. There were speculation that the A level results would not come out on 5 March 2010 because the enlistment date is 5th march, but it did, and the enlistment date changed to 6th March. 1 day to think about what to choose, isn't alot of time ya? ^^
The rest of the 10 months of 2010 has been more or less spent in Tekong, or gaming at home. For what? To sedate myself from reality... that's my reality.
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Thursday, November 19, 2009
Today I went for the physics 2009 A level paper 2, and I kinda screwed it up. I think I accidentally wrote 'ln' when I am supposed to write 'lg'. Idk how much damage I will take due to that error, but I think I will expect more marks to be lost because I did not include some key terms as I was rushing through and I did not complete some other questions as I did not have time.
On the side note I got quite a shock when I did the A level paper for 2007, I got a shock too! I did not know how to do the explanations. I had the rough idea but I did not know what had to be included or how to go about explaining it.
Today, though, the new washing machine arrived. The old onewas was making weird sounds when the tumbler thing stopped spinning. The old one isn't old either, it has just exceeded the warrenty period of one year and now repairing it costs more than buying a new one. Seriously, I don't get this fucked up logic. If repairing costs more than buying a new one, then it shouldn't be called repairing at all. The repairman concluded that there're 3 components that's faulty. changing the buttons (as a few were unresponsive) would cost $200, it COULD be reasonable, but I don't see why it will cost $200 as with our level of technology one such part could be manufactured with a cost of production of $20. Then comes the high pitched 'braking' sound. He said it poses no problem/hazard, but fixing it will cost another $200! I really wonder if he's fixing shit or is he trying to replace the whole component. Then comes the water drainage/dispensing issue (i not sure which one he was referring to). It'll cost another $100, but by than my mum decided not to keep the washing machine and had to pay $40 to the repairman for coming over. IMO, the repairman just doesn't want to repair. I think he's just trying to earn the $40 as repairing probably isn't as lucrative. Anyway, this "$40" is too high a cost for us to find a few repairman (and hopefully dispell my suspecion/find a honest one) to give the right price for fixing it. Then again, he could be under the orders of his company to just declare that it's unfixable so that we'll buy a new one, hence for them to earn profits. I don't know, but either way it's fucked up.
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2:30 AM
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Sunday, November 15, 2009
It has been like 3 months since i last posted anything. I've haven't been doing much. I don't know why, but i screwed up my economics and chemistry in my prelims. I expected my economics to be at least a pass, but it turns out it's a fail. I expected my chemistry to be way better, but I got a marginal pass. I think someone pryed open my brain and used a stun gun on my brain, hence resetting my knowledge. I don't know.
It's the A level exams recently, and frankly, I'm very ill prepared. Reading the notes desperate to get as much as I can out of them since it'll probably be the last time i'm looking at them, I can't help but think that alot of effort hads been put in by the tutors(teachers) and if i don't do well, it'll be wasting their efforts. Chemistry paper 3 didn't go well. When asked to label DEFG, i labelled ABCD. I'm not sure if they'll give me the mark, if not, that's one whole chuck of a question gone XD. Math paper 1 didn't go well either. I mean, I did practice other school paper but i still kinda screwed up. Either I don't even know the approach to take, or that i lost marks due to carelessness. Oh well. As for general paper, I feel that what i wrote is inadequate to secure good marks no matter how i write. So far i've completed about half my exams, and i feel that it isn't well done. But I really want to get good results. I guess it's my fault for not putting in effort earlier and in times like now when I should be studying. Tomorrow's chemistry paper 2. Better go grind on books later on.
4 days ago, my younger brother didn't want a sticker my mum brought for him a few years ago, so he decided on a day a few year later, he will stick it onto a packet of potato chips so that it'll be thrown away with the chips. Innovative eh. Oh, the sticker had a peliper (evolved form of wingull) with a shiny pink background.
So, I guess that concludes this blog post. It's not much, but still it pretty much wraps up my monotonous life which is fll of indecisiveness, wrong decisions and probably lots of procrastination.
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6:20 PM
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Sunday, August 23, 2009
Well, just to share some cool videos. They're aren't playlisted I think.
Runescape Gods Exposed - Episode 1 (machinima)
Runescape Gods Exposed - Episode 2 (machinima)
Runescape Gods Exposed - Episode 3 (machinima)
Runescape Gods Exposed - Episode 4 (machinima)
Runescape Gods Exposed - Episode 5 (machinima)
Runescape Gods Exposed - Episode 6 (machinima)
Runescape Gods Exposed - Episode 7 (machinima)
I'll probably update this post when there are updates so... erm... bookmark the date or something lol.
Labels: Runescape
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Tuesday, August 11, 2009
It was been a long time since I last posted anything that I personally typed on the blog. Life was really quite hectic. There are plenty of things to do and yet I could not master the concept of time management. Ok I can remind myself of what to do and stuff, but that's the easy part. The hard part is that I can't concentrate on studies (that's why I believe that I have attention deficient disorder (or something along that line)). Whenever I encounter some relatively challenging or a question that requires tedious calculations, I jump off my seat and migrate to my gaming station, where I will stay for at least 30mins. Then I'll hop back to my study station, see the same question momentarily and migrate back to my computer! HURRAY! So yea, ADD. :)
I don't think I'm hyperactive. Right?
After semestrial assement 2, it began the rise of project S.T.A.R. I personally have no idea what STAR stands for, but it's not something to do with superstar or idol or singing or anything like that. It's about studies. Concentrated dosage of studying. A form of intensive revision if you may.
That's only the part that covers the afternoon. There's also one that covers the night. In case you are wondering, the normal school "collapsed timetable" covers the morning.
In the night session, to sum it up, it is "Giving a place to study when home study is not working", in the most gentle tone I can put it. Since I'm not that's clearly against night study, you should note that my "gentle" might be subject to bias. It's rather ironic how we are expected to substantiate every claim for project work and general paper but it is, not within knowledge anyway, that it benefits the students. Unless it's on the grounds of getting out of the night study, I don't find other grounds for substantiation. To put it simply, students are not robots, none automatous in nature and finally require rest. Sure, some might actually benefit from such a program, with reasons ranging from non-condusive studying background at home to probably being homeless. I don't want to get into trouble with the authorities so I shall stop my rant here, but I shall list some distractants down for you to read:
The bed, an obvious destrating agent. Perhaps an infinite things can be done on the bed. You can cultivate dust mites for your biology class, test how good the spring is in storing energy and even realise your desire on it. Many claim when they want to study, they want to sleep. That's an obvious feeling that they have if you ask me, because if they feel like sleeping that means they lack sleep, and when they still feel like sleeping after sleeping for awhile that means that they have lost quite a few nights of sleep and when they still feel like sleeping after sleeping after a sleep, that means that they have some sleeping disorder! So yes, the bed does distract you, but that's your own fault for not sleeping early.
The computer, a machine of (fill in your blank). One of the portals used to access facebook, go explore failblog or even play computer games. An excellent machine for derailing one from studies if not handled properly. The computer, by itself, is not able to conciously control and human being. However, should one get to close with the computer and gets caught within it's control, breaking out is more difficult than jailbreak. Youtube videos prove more attention seeking than black and white printed pictures. Notes and books cite millions of sites off the internet. You must google before asking a stupid question. Games now have gravity that emultates the real world. So why wait? Go for the primary sources instead of the secondary sources. Use your computer today!
Books. Yes, books ITSELF distract the individual from studying. The question is why. We don't know. What I do speculate that that Harry Potter is selling better than textbooks evne thought textbooks is something compulsary to purchase in some schools. These fiction books reflect truely what books should be like, what language should be used for and more importantly, helps you improve your standard of living by improving your material standards of living. However, the blame MUST not be placed on these fiction books itself. We must also admit that fiction books have more interesting pictures on them too and textbooks (and notes for that matter) must blame themselves for being dull in nature. Furthermore, books are mutagens. Individuals who consume too much of books become bookworms, and those who study too much become muggers (studying freaks). So much for eating healthy huh.
These points might have some truth in them but I just rafted them out for humor purposes.
Channeler of lust
1:30 AM
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Friday, July 10, 2009
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
| Level | Score |
|---|---|
| Purgatory (Repenting Believers) | Very Low |
| Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) | Very Low |
| Level 2 (Lustful) | Moderate |
| Level 3 (Gluttonous) | High |
| Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) | Very High |
| Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) | Extreme |
| Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) | Very High |
| Level 7 (Violent) | High |
| Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) | Very High |
| Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) | High |
Take the Dante's" Inferno Test
| Greed: | High | |
| Gluttony: | Medium | |
| Wrath: | Very High | |
| Sloth: | High | |
| Envy: | Low | |
| Lust: | Medium | |
| Pride: | High |
The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com
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Tuesday, June 30, 2009
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | High |
| Schizoid: | Very High |
| Schizotypal: | Very High |
| Antisocial: | Moderate |
| Borderline: | Low |
| Histrionic: | Low |
| Narcissistic: | High |
| Avoidant: | High |
| Dependent: | Low |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | High |
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information -- | |
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