Thursday, May 21, 2009
"The end justifies the way"
That was the sentence that got stuck in my head after tuesday's GP lesson. For an GP arguement, yes, the end does justify the method used, but now I realise why so much controvasy one this term exists.
Today, I coined the term "he went out of orbit" because this apparent stone disappeared after running on the track for PE. This guy who I was talking to went to class, used that term, and now everyone he coined that term. One even praised "his intelligent mind". It was supposed to be my credit :(
I should be like comforted that the result of laughing at the person is achieved, but still... he gets popularity points instead of me. I should just isolate myself from the rest from the class.
It happened more than once though. But... D: D: D:
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4:06 AM
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Tuesday, May 19, 2009
To keep this blog alive, I'll have to keep updating and since there ain't much to post about, why no use my blog to advertise my adoptables =]
My first dragon, liquidcrystal, is going to be an ancient dragon soon so i really need your help and gets clicks for it to grow!
Anyway, I just came back from sports day 2009. My house, the hawk house, didn't win champion house this year i think. I didn't really stay for the whole thing. I was having some hangover-ish headache so all i wanted to do was to get home and rest.
My class boys did win the 12 by 100 relay. GQ really did close the gap between the 1st runner and my class' position. Good job!
... and you know, sports isn't really my thing. I was practically rotting for the rest of the time. Time wasted I guess.
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Monday, May 18, 2009
I'm inflammed, no, not the infected one, but rather, I'm being torched with anger. The pressure of JC life drenched like kerosene on me, and all it look was a simple spark to ignite it, incinerating me to the ground.
I don't know why I suddenly got so angry. It was all tolerable. It was always tolerable. But, just suddenly, something doesn't feel right. It's this vexing feeling that constantly bugs me.I've just finished chemistry SPA skill D, and I should be feeling relieved. But rather, I'm all tensed up.
My GP teacher keeps saying the work I submit (I assume it was me) is rubbish. Yes, I admit, it is. I don't know what to write, and if I told her that now, she would either kill me, slaugther me or f***ing kill me. Not much difference in the outcome though. Really. I don't get the thinking process that the paper general paper demands. Do they want what the world is? Do they want what... ? I don't even know a damn. I'm just being blown apart after every assignment, every test. Everytime I think I did quite well for the paper and feeling quite proud of it, the reverse happens, I score horrendous marks, barely scraping the U band. I'm just barely staying afloat. And I don't feel like asking me friends, or more accuratly, my classmates. I sense that they don't really like me asking them. Probably for the fear that I might be a threat to their standings in the exams. Maybe I'm just sensitive, but then agian, who knows? It's everyone for themselves, remember?
Anyway, someone just missed call me, and I, feeling rather guilty of all the missed calls I've been getting, decided to be nice and let the person that just called me get the honour of me calling him instead. And he was asking if I am the AVA president. How do I put this in a simple way... hmmm... there is no more AVA in my JC. It became the infocomm club. Photography and AVA merged to become a new club. So technically I'm not the president of the AVA, i'm just in charge. I don't know. I just SMSed him with the presiden's number and leave it at that. I don't really want to care anymore. I'm just so tired nowadays that I feel like im forsaking my role as a AV sectional leader.
Perhaps, we should look at other things.
The first and most fundamental rule of me states that I am never wrong. And like some other people would add: "Just in case I'm wrong, look at the first rule". Indeed, from now on i would dwell more on why the things around me that warped me to my current plight, and not how i contributed. Then again, what can an individual really do?
You see, there was this topical test in janurary, or more specifically, the first day of school this year. Being in the holiday-iest of mode, of course i didn't study and scored quite badly. Then came what horror that took the whole year 2s by surprise, STAR programs. I don't know what it's abbreviated for, but it's a form of mass remedial program. Pretty fancy huh? It gets better (it always does). We, the students of the JC, will have to wait for the other students that end at a later time. So that'll be like erm... say... 5pm. Yes, we know, there are other classes, but what about our own welfare, and theirs' too? Being already tired when we get home, we will get even more tired after the STAR program, which causes the school to end artifically late. It's not like we run on nuclear energy, and even so, nuclear energy can run out. You see, I don't know what books to quote. I don't have concrete evidence, maybe my rational is crooked, or maybe there wasn't even one, the rational behind STAR might be backed by 9384276857 different books written by professors with Ph.Ds. I have none of that. I only have an O level cert, and on top of that, not a straight A'ed one. So maybe I'm not as good, but you see, it might actually get counter productive.
Do you really think that students can study in their free time in schools? Think about it. All the time spent on promoting learning styles, actually winded up being pure utilisation of the school resources. I know, the school has a bed in the sick bay, it has computers, it has perhaps, a quite cool environment for you to study in. But, the question lies that if it's the most condusive environment. To me it's not. I won't be fallacious to say that it will apply to all, since i'm trying my best to make the best out of my GP lesson today, but surely, some will agree. But the most important factor to play is the vicious cycle this STAR program system entils. The cycle involves not time to do tutorial, followed by longer hours of school, but still no time to do tutorial and revision, lack of sleep, can't pay attention in class and ultimately and probably worser grades. However, this is only just pure thought and like I said, it can't be compared to the professors' research, but that's what some students think.
The mind is a powerful thing. If the students already dismiss STAR program as being a waste of time, how helpful can it get? Parents might argue that if there is no STAR, it only shows the school doesn't care about the students' grades. But, I don't know. I'm tired...
Well, at least i vented a fraction of my thoughts. I forgot the rest and the burning feeling as subsided. The rest of my thought probably burnt beyond recognition.
Channeler of lust
1:37 AM
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